The Connie Diaries ~ May 1986

May is a wonderful and horrible month when you are a teenager! School is almost out but that last month drags on. If you are new to The Connie Diaries and need to catch up....click HERE.

Last month young Connie visited a dairy on a class field trip, watched Dallas, got drunk for the first time, met a new boy and she invented Reality TV.

My comments are in purple.

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May 1, 1986

I love Andrew! Really? Last night I got the biggest surprise of my life! Andrew came into Greeley to see me! We just kind of stood there on my front step talking and then he said he had to go. :( So...I pulled him up to the top step and I put my arms around his neck and I kissed him! Then when he got home he called me and we talked for an hour!

Today, I found out that he got in a fight! A lover AND a fighter! He is going to be suspended for 3 days and he'll be grounded by his Mom and not get to go roller skating on Saturday. I can't handle this!! And now a bunch of guys what to fight him tomorrow.....I'm so worried about him. Please God don't let anything happen to him! I remember being so scared that they would kill him.

Connie
loves
Andrew

May 4, 1986

Well, yesterday was a rather interesting day. Allison came over in the morning and we went to the Greeley Mall and we both bought pants. Then we went back to my house and watched TV. At 1:00pm, my Dad took us and our bikes to Lucerne and we rode our bikes 12 miles WHAT? to Andrew's house. We got there about an hour before he got home from work so we sat and talked to his mom! She is really nice!

our route...google maps says it is only 10 miles

John and Andrew came home and walked right past us and into the house. His mom went in and said, 'Your girls rode their bikes all this way and you don't even say hi when you walk in the door?' So they came and sat down. They didn't talk to us hardly at all! So we were kind of pissed. Andrew looked SCARED out of his mind when my Dad came to get us and our bikes and he met him for the first time. It was kind of funny. I should have broken up with him for that...I rode my bike 10 miles to see him. In the heat. Uphill. That's bull!

Now, update on skating.....The boys showed up about 7:30pm. We didn't go over to them right away because we wanted them to think we were still kind of mad. The truth is our legs were like freakin jelly because we rode 12 10 miles in the heat and then went roller skating! Then they went and played video games and then Andrew skated over to me and asked me if I was mad. I said 'No, I thought you were mad at me'. So we made up! :) But John and Allison didn't and spent the next hour fighting. Then I saw Allison roll off to the bathroom in tears and I followed her. John had just dropped a huge bomb on her. He said that his ex-girlfriend is pregnant! I'm going to finish this tomorrow because I'm crying like crazy. I remember feeling like we were in a bad after school special and I felt so helpless.

May 13, 1986

This isn't tomorrow, but I'll finish the story. When Allison told me about John's Ex, I just kept thinking about what I would do if Andrew was telling me this and I couldn't stop crying. I felt so badly for Allison. We cried together all the way home and it took me until 3am to stop and fall asleep.

Now on a happy note: I thought I would tell you about how last Saturday went! GREAT! Allison was supposed to take us to the skating rink and my parents were going to pick us up. She decided at the last minute that she didn't want to go and my parents had already gone to Denver for the night on a date. Bobbi and I were thinking of who we could get to take us? We called Rocky! And he said he would give us a ride...In his CORVETTE!! 2 seater car....3 people. That's safe.

Rocky was a young, hot guy with blonde feathered hair that worked for my Dad. I had the biggest crush on him and every Friday when my Dad would bring the crew over to wash the trucks I would sit in the window and watch Rocky all tan with his shirt off. I also used to write Mrs. Rocky Balboa on all of the available pieces of paper in the house.

Andrew and John didn't get to the skating rink until 9:15pm and they were drunk! They were really funny but didn't stay very long.

I hope we are still together on July 4th because that is when the carnival comes to town. I'm shooting for 3 months at the very least. Good Luck! The 24th of this month will be ONE whole month!

Connie
loves
Andy

Our song: Whisper in the Dark...Dionne Warwick

May 16, 1986

I want to die! I don't to live! I'm in so much trouble that it isn't even funny!

Lola was going to spend the night at my house. My parents went to a banquet at The Ebony Room for Greeley Gas. So we were home and taking care of Bobbi. Lola and I went down the street to Randy's house and left Bobbi alone! We talked to Randy for about 10 minutes and then we saw my parents come home and we had to think of a story. We told them that we were babysitting at Margi's house and then we found out that Bobbi was gone when they got home. She had woken up, was scared and called Margi. She came over to get her and left a note. Dad knew immediately that we were lying. My Dad took Lola home and when he got back I got my butt chewed.

Here's what the consequences are:

1. I'm grounded for a long, long time! 31 days!
2. My parents don't trust with anything, nor will they believe anything I say. They are talking about selling my car. NOT THE CAR!
3. I won't get to see Andrew and this is killing me most of all. I bet he breaks up with me now.
4. I have to go to Sunday School and Missionettes. You know you're in trouble when you have to get Jesus involved.

I feel so awful! I hate myself and I wish I was dead. Really? Dead? I don't think I will be able to live through this. Lola thinks this is all her fault because it was her idea to go for a walk....but I could have said no. That damn Lola...

May 18, 1986

I have 30 more days of solitary confinement. One day has already gone by. I was reading in my Sunday School book about Honesty and Love in the family and it made me cry.

I want to see Andrew so badly. My heart aches because I am missing him so much! I can't even talk to him on the phone. I have written him a letter and I hope he writes back. HA! I love him so much and I'm so afraid that we will be like strangers to each other when I'm ungrounded. We will have to start all over. I sure hope his feelings for me don't change....

11 days until school is out!
29 day until I'm FREE!

May 25, 1986

I love Andrew! Today, my Dad took me out for a driving lesson and we drove to Ault. You know who lives in Ault don't you? Andrew lives there. Did you see him?

May 29, 1986

I'm home sick today. I have the most painful cramps of my whole life!

I'm so very confused about my relationship with Andrew. I love him very, very much but I don't know if he loves me. Then he probably doesn't. I wish I knew. It would make life more bearable. I'm so confused, and you know who's fault that is. Of course, I know you know but does he know? What? Now I don't know. Why does love have to be so complicated? I'm think of sending Andrew a self-addressed stamped envelope. Good Luck with that.

5 more days until school is out!
18 more days until I'm FREE!

May 31, 1986

Andrew claims that there is nothing wrong....but I could tell by the tone of his voice that there is something. Hey...I thought you were grounded from the phone. It would be so much easier if he would just tell me. I thought about calling John but then decided going to the root of the problem was best. The Direct approach...I like it.

I tried to get him to talk to me but nothing I said got a reaction from him. I don't what I'm doing wrong. So far he hasn't written me a letter and I don't know what to do. I wish I could talk to Lola about it but as you know we are both grounded from the telephone!

By the way, only 6 more days of my confinement. Wanna know why? Yes! I went with my family to an air show last weekend and it was cold and windy so my Dad took a week off of my punishment! :)

I had awful dreams last night about Andrew breaking up with me.