He woke up screaming at 2:41am. I didn't hear it right away because I was in one of those deep sleeps where you don't know your name or where you are. Keith jumped up to tend to our son, he's so good about that.
I clamped my eyes shut and tried to will myself to return to sleep. Come on....you can do it.
Nope. It's too late, I'm awake.
My brain was awake and had begun its routine. Thinking.
Keith says that I think too much. I tell him that I can't help it, it just happens.
I'm sure there's a study being done about it somewhere, but when I'm awake at 2:41am my brain works in a way that suggests that something very important has been interrupted. It races.
It's like this.
Did I remember to sign that permission slip? Does Mallory have clean socks to wear with her boots? Oh no. Does Mallory have boots. NO! Alex has boots which he says are too small now. NOTE to SELF, check the size of Alex's boots. What is Mallory going to wear if it snows? I could put grocery sacks over her shoes but then people would laugh at her and then no one will vote for me for PTA President and that would be so sad. I DON'T WANT TO BE PRESIDENT. Oh yeah. Shoot I forgot to give Heather the receipt for the copies. Did I request the book club book yet? What is the book club book? NOTE TO SELF: check the website for the book. What is in a first aid kit? NOTE TO SELF: google FIRST AID KIT in the morning. It is morning. I want coffee. Do I have a small bag that I can use as a first aid kit for the field trip on Friday? hmmmm.....what about the little blue bag. Where is the blue bag? Did I take it to Black Hawk? Do I have bandaids? I wonder if they sell Neosporin in little packets that would fit in a small first aid kit that can be taken on a field trip. I hope the weather is nice on Friday. I'm going to be so upset if it rains. Or it's cold. What am I going to wear on Friday? Do not check your phone for the weather. DO NOT. You can wait until morning. It is morning. You can wait. Don't do it. I need to buy wet wipes and brown paper bags at the store. ZZZZZZZZZZ
Finally...a couple HOURS later. I finally go back to sleep.
And then the alarm goes off.